You Have To Laugh I Suppose.. *^^*..

Here we go again – I’ve been crippled by shyness, experienced the reduction of romance like a fine sauce by the passage of time, been dumped in a country of 91.9 million strangers 7,000 miles from home, and now as if all that wasn’t enough I’m put in the position of having to bottle up my feelings for a certain somebody, who has become very special to me of late. At this point I admit I wouldn't mind knowing just how many permutations I’m going to have to go through in my life before ‘Miss Right’ appears. I know, I know.. but let me reiterate that this is not a whinge (well, it's a little therapeutic) but rather a continuing catalogue of life as it goes, blow by blow, for the benefit of anyone reading - and believe me it certainly does blow.

I keep getting the feeling that if I'm lucky enough to get to read this back years from now my life will probably appear to me as a warning to others on how NOT to play it, rather than a resume of success. If anyone reading is wondering how to deal with unrequited feelings, my first bit of advice is reconcile those feelings - as quickly as you possibly can. Having experienced a few heartbreaking variations on a theme I can say that this is probably the cruellest out there.. and yes, without some effort on your part the hardest day will be the day when she finds her ‘Mr Right’ - but I will also be happy for her.. and so should you.

That’s lesson number two.

Remember always that if you really care then know that she deserves her happiness too, simple as.. Don’t blame her for her lack of mutual feelings. As has been discussed if that spark is missing then that’s just the way it is. Retain your honour in the face of circumstantial defeat! If any doubt remains just bear a little role reversal in mind. Rejection is hard, but I would say there’s nothing wrong with feeling the way you will likely feel – grieving through any kind of emotional difficulty or loss is okay, just don’t dwell on it for too long. Believe in the future. Listen to me.. I’m beginning to sound like a pro (you’d never believe it really).

I think we will always have a good friendship whatever the circumstances but it has to be said that letting go of the regular companionship, as with all friendships which move on, will be hard. Oh, and if that certain someone is reading this.. then for the record I want you to know that when your day does come I will be so happy.. and I will miss you so much :)